I'm sorry i thougt i had to...

LIE ...

i thought it's the easiest way out.
i don't like being asked when i'm not yet ready to answer.

so I did what i did.

make up an awful story ...

i thought that it's the only thing that would keep you from asking.

i thought ... maybe if i can make you buy it; you'll just stop asking and i wouldn't have to lie to you anymore.

keep it all for myself ...

i was scared of letting you know ... i still am.

i'm so afraid of being alone. ... i thought that finding out what i have to hide

would leave an ugly scar to US. ... then ... things will never be the same again.

I'm sorry I'm such an insecure little bitch.

i should've trusted you more ... you deserve that.

but i just had to keep something ...

i trust yo with my life ... trust me, I do. ...

i just don't feel like telling you everything.

It's not that i don't trust you ...

I'm just so damn insecure ...

I'm insecure about an awful lot of things ... this is just one of the many.

.... i hope i made the right decision. >:D<