not your superman

i said i'm done being your superman ...

but how i could i ... when I've never been your superman to begin with.

it's funny how I've always thought that i should be protecting you ...

when you were and still are way stronger than i am.

you can take care of yourself ... yeah ... you've said that before ... see what happened???

i know i don't have any right whatsoever to tell you how you should live your life ...

but GOD! ... what are you doing to yourself???

.... BLAH! i'm over reacting. i'm over reacting. i'm over reacting!!!!

i'm taking it all back ...

fine, ... wear what you want to wear take pictures if you want ... and for the love of God ... yes ... do post them on whatever social networking site you like.

i haven't seen you in a long time ... of course you will change.

who the fuck am i to say that it's not you anymore??

you're you and you're my friend ... i should respect whatever you want to do with your life.

after all ... i still have an awful lot of mess of my own. ...

...

i don't know ...

it's just ....

it's funny.... despite knowing now how much of a weakling i am .... i still feel like i should protect you. ... but fact is ... i can't.

I was so conceited to think that i am some kind of a superman .... your superman.

i can't fight your war ... why did i ever think that i can save you? ... how could i when i can't even win a battle between me and myself?

and i never will.

CRAP! I REALLY AM SO SO OVER REACTING.

just ... please take care of yourself.