The perfect dress

You know that feeling you get when you walk by a store and saw 'the perfect dress'. you know it'll cost you but you're willing to save up for it. then the next day you'll realize that not only does it cost a fortune, it won't fit you anyway. ... that's the time when you'll ask yourself ... what the hell had happened to the person who used to be so happy with her baggy jeans and ragged t-shirt?

You try and go back to your old wardrobe, thinking you were so comfortable wearing those clothes back then. Who the hell said you can't wear them anymore? So you try ... You pick out the simplest of your shirts and the baggiest of your pants. You look at the mirror, brush your hair just for the sake of doing it. you pick your lipstick up and realize you don't need it anymore. You smile and think ... 'this is so much easier, why did I ever think of changing this lifestyle?' you used think 'ragged' style suits you best. suits your personality. and it does.

So you go on ahead with your day. just like the old times. you should feel comfortable, that's one of the perks of dressing down. and you are, you are comfortable ... but still every time you pass by a mirror, you secretly wish you had picked that nice blouse and cute skirt in your closet. every time you pass by a mirror and see your pale dark lips, you secretly wish you brought that lipstick with you.

the thing is ... you have changed. you may think you don't like it ... maybe because you can't buy the dress that you want or maybe because it won't fit you ... but there are tons of pretty dresses in the world. somewhere out there a pretty little red dress is waiting for you and when you see it, try it on. If it fits and you have enough money ... for the love of god, go buy it and maybe pair it up with killer heels

the thing this is ... that is probably age ... finally kicking in ... you didn't seriously think that you'd be happy playing tag and it forever ... did you? maybe it's just your girly-girl alter ego fighting it's way out of you.

Fact is, you want that dress and you can't have it ... the size and the price tag says so. ... that's kind of disappointing ... but that is not the last dress in the world ...