re-visit

so, i've been a mess! i mean really. i don't know what's gotten into me.

looking back ... man, i really feel so ashamed. i'm like 'why the hell did i do that??'

really, it's not something i would do ... that is of course if i'm sane at the moment.

or maybe i wasn't at the time.

why are you telling me this?

i don't know, i just thought that maybe that's the reason why i'm here ... you know,

talk to you and stuff. isn't that what i'm here for?

you tell me.

how the hell would i know?

you asked for me.

i did? when?

you tell me.

....

well, not exactly.

...

it's more like you asked for something else but that something else has better things to do.

here i am.

i remember having a dream like this you know.

i can see you're happy ... you know it's healthy if you stay like that.

what are you saying?? i'm always happy.

are you? ... really, come on ... if that's true then why did you do it?

just don't dwell on it ok.

...

wake up now, i promise you'll smile if you get up now.

get up, get up.