it was my besy friend's 19th b-day last saturday. there was a small celebration. when i asked her who else will come, she just said high school friends ... so i assumed it would just be D12 ... i totally forgot about her other circle of friends ...
it feels so weird hanging out w/ the people i never really liked. i can't even remember being in the same room with them unless we're having a class.
they were ... "the in crowd" as others may say. and i was never really comfortable being around them. i can't believe it has been 4 years already ... they were talking about a lot of stuffs, interesting stuffs, that happened right in front of me ... and i just didn't care at that time. hanging out with my best friend's friends (the people that i was so jealous of) made me realize how i isolated myself back in high school ... how i judged people w/o even really knowing them, what they were like ...
back in the day ... i just took one look at them and i see the people whose trying to take my dearest friend away from our group, away from me ... i just took once glance and started putting labels on them ...
oh, that one's a slut, bastard, airhead, back-stabing bitch ... oh i hate her ... who does she think she is? ... blah blah blah.
never in my wildest imagination had i thought of hanging out w/ them. it's funny ... i actually enjoyed their company ... i ate all those nasty words i uttered against them ... i almost choked because there was an awful lot of cursing and bad-mouthing ... once again ... i proved myself wrong ...
i've come to realize . . . maybe fitting in is not really about pleasing everybody and try to seek acceptance from them ... maybe it's you who needs to learn how to accept the crowd, embrace it .... but do not let yourself be lost in it.
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