you're not without fault.

I know what you're feeling. But most importantly i know why you're feeling it. We both know that you do too...

So let me remind you just in case you forgot. You are not without fault.

They see something wrong in the things you do because there is something wrong with them. It doesn't matter how small it is. A mistake is a mistake.

You can't make that lame excuse for the rest of your life. You made a choice. Stand by it.

You wanted to grow. You chose that path. Suck it up and take the pain. you know it'll be good for you. you know it'll make you stronger.

It's okay to let it all out every in a while. But for God's sake dont turn it into a nasty habit. Don't turn yourself into something you despise .Because if you can no longer stand yourself ... who else will? Stop blaming the world for your misery. You know you took part in making it.

you're okay. you're okay ... you know that deep down.

YOU ARE OKAY.

You've just begun. ... stay on that track. You know how easily you tend to give up. ... You've been proven wrong for so many times. It didn't feel good did it? Would you let them have all the fun? ... Come on! prove yourself wrong too! ... If they can, why the hell can't you?

You want to cry? go ahead!

You're mad? go ahead and scream ... throw plates around .... oh wait, no ... don't do that. just ... scream.

You know why you couldn't say anything?

it's because because you know they have a point. I'm not saying you totally agree with them, the thing is you see them ... and somehow you understand.

You understand ... but you can't accept them ... well at least not all of them.

that ... well ... that i dont know how to deal with. but we'll figure it out.

...

Pull yourself together. you know you're on to something good.

Stop beating youself around. cut yourself some slack.

It's just the beginning.

Assert yourself! as your boss always say.

This wont be the last time ... i know.

sooner or later you'll feel it again. you'll blame every one except yourself. you'll feel as if the universe is conspiring to make your life miserable.

when that day comes just remember this. YOU ARE NOT WITHOUT FAULT.

Don't blame everything on yourself either ... come on! you're not that special ...

No one would put that responsibility on you.

Just do what you have to do and do your best. dont slack off.

one more thing ...

DO NOT write blog posts during office hours ... do it in your free time!