infatuated part II (time warp)

15 days after that of exchange of smiles, i had the chance to see him again.
thinking that everything's fine now, i expected a little something

...i acted as normal as possible. i tried to hide that overflowing excitement. (landi tlga!)

he's coming my way ... what should i do??? breathe in .... breathe out .....okay ... he's 10 feet away from me, 9 ft, 8, .... 4, 3

....oh GOD he's in front of me ... oh GOD, oh GOD ... what should i say??? ... i'm thinking too much again

oh GOD he's talking to me now.

"hey how are you?" he said.

i immediately turned into an ice.

"hey! lopez ... have you seen your report card already?" he asked.

still ice. i don' know maybe he thought i didn't want to talk to him because i'm not responding. oh if he only knew ...

"... see you next school year then." he said then smiled.

i melted ... and as he was about to walk away i finally had the guts to talk ...

"yeah, i'm looking forward to it" i said at his back.

"me too."

then he melted me more with his magical smile again....



nah! never happened!!!



he was walking towards my way. i was ready to greet him. my hand is raising by itself ready for a little wave. ....but damn it! he just passed me by. ...

damn! what about the smile, the pat on my back ... what are those for????

he ignored me.



May 16, 2005 exactly 3 months after his freaking smile melted me.

i enrolled in another school, in another town, another region.now i'll be thousand miles away from my friends, my family and him. so i transferred to another school but that's a totally different story.



june 16 2005 it was a very ordinary and boring day at my new school, everyone was so mean to me and i have a bad headache. ... so i decided not to attend the rest of my class.

i went home and dive into my bed.



i woke up in the infirmary bed of my old school. i couldn't believe my eyes ...

how could i be here??? i transferred school already.

i got up, ate nurse saw me.

"you're awake " she said, offering me a glass of water.

god i'm bewitched. i thought to myself.

" ... hurry your lunch break is almost over"

holy macaroni is this really happening??? she's actually talking to me ....

"don't forget your medicine ok!!!" she said as she usually do whenever i'm there ... i was kind of a regular infirmary patient.

"um ... ok" i said, still clueless about what's happening. i went out straight to our favorite spot. there they (my friends) are eating.



"hey! how come you guys didn't wait for me???" i yelled at them.

"you were sleeping like a baby! what the hell do want us to do ... starve here til you wake up!" LA said.

i'm still confused

" we brought your food here anyway" this time it's criselle.

"thanks" i hesitantly accepted.

everything seems so normal

"hey guys ... you know that i'm not supposed to be here right?" i asked.

"yah stay in the infirmary. ... where you belong!"

"no ... i mean, i transferred school already"

"still frustrated about transferring huh? ... face it! your stuck with us." joanna said laughing.

they laughed ... i laughed with them though i'm still a little confused. oh my GOD am i being tricked by something unseen ... have i unknowingly stepped on a "punso"? .... i am not feeling well, i don't know what's happening ... it cant get any worse now, can it?



.... well, that's what i thought .....the bell rang! my friends went back to their respective classrooms ... ans i was going to .. but ... where?

now where am i supposed to go? i thought to myself ....

people flooded the hallway and i'm stuck in the middle of it. i dropped my lunch box (if you can call it that) i have to pick it up of course ... then someone bumped into me and i fell on the floor.

"hey what the hell are you still doing here? ... aren't you supposed to be in class?" i heard a familiar voice say.

"umm, yeah i know but .... the thing is ...... i dont know where my classroom is" i said, dusting myself off.

"still high from the infirmary meds huh?"

"the what?" i asked

i dont even know who am i talking to. i'm still on the floor. and i still don't have any idea where my freaking room is!!! .... then he reached out for my hand and helped me get up.

"umm, thanks" i awkwardly said.

then finally got the chance to look at his face to see who he is ... and ..... oh my LORD!!! it's him! he's holding my hands, he's smiling at me .... and ... oh my GOD i am melting again.

"hey do you know where my room is?" i asked, feeling a burning sensation on my cheeks.

"you're kidding right?" he said. his eyebrows are meeting in the middle, and that's not a good sign.

i just gave him a blank stare

"it's ether that ... or ... you're trying to be cute." he said bluntly.

blank stare.

"come on we're late!" he yelled.

he looked a bit pissed now, but what can i do??? i really don't know where my room is.

"umm, it's ok i'll just go back to the infirmary." i said, with fear evident in my voice.

he looked at me as if he's examining my face or something

"you're serious ... you really are." finally, his pissed-off face melted. and that made me relax a bit.

"ummm .... yeah"

he grabbed me by the wrist and dragged me through the hallway and we went up to the second floor .... he kept on dragging me then we stopped in front of the room that says

welcome junior B

"hey both of you .. you're late ... stay outside til i say so" an angry and slightly scary voice say.

oh good heavens! it's our filipino teacher ... now we have to stay outside until her subject is over ... we sat along the hallway and talked, joked around and laughed ... it was ... how should i say this? .... ummm, perfect.

*sigh* ... it was perfect ... until ....

oh GOD i think i have to throw up ... breathe in breathe out ... no, no i can control this .... TOO LATE! .... (*% *$*&*^ *%$ 0^^$^# #&^%$^%$)


"ma'am she's throwing up!!! .... are you okay?" he said, panicking.

"yah i'm fi.... #%^@Q% @$%&@$&" i was supposed to say i'm ok ... but my darn puke just had to come out.

"i'll take you back to the infirmary"

"no need ... i'm fine."

"hey! you ARE SICK ... why did you even bother to go to school anyway?"

i felt like the ground was shaking ... oh GOD ... why do i have to be sick? ... he took me to the infirmary but the nurse wasn't there ... so he decided to stay there with me.

"hey, you should take your medicine and get some sleep... "

"but ... i just woke up .... and ... i'm all alone here ... it's kinda scary."

"fine. i'll stay here till you fall asleep"

i took my medicine. he gave me water. he sat on the other bed and just watched me.

"... are you sure you want to stay here ... i mean, it's time for our next subject right?"

"i don't care .... it's just out our study period anyway"

the next 15 minutes was pure silence ... it's deafening ... i have all this this things that i wanted to say, that i wanted to ask .... that i wanted to clarify ... but i just couldn't say anything ... finally, he broke the silence ......

"hey... can i ask you something?"

"sure ... what is it?"

"why did we fight?"

i dont know, but i was hoping you're friend, if you can call him that, wasn't just playing me when he said that it's because you liked me. ... yeah i wish i could say that out lout. but i couldn't.

"i ... ummm, i don't know ... maybe because you never said it"

"say what?"

you know ... that all of those horrible things you did was to get back at me for pairing you up and my friend ... when you clearly wanted me. ... yeah ... in my dreams.

"you know ... that you're sorry for about my books, my stuff..... it's my turn to ask now"

"yeah ... what is it?"

is it because you liked me? ... now seriously i gotta be careful before i say anything out loud.

"why were you mean to me?"

"you don't know?"

what are you, stupid? ... of course I ... well i think i do ... i just want to hear it from you. so please ... let me hear it.

"of course i don't. will i ask if i do?"

" .... I'M SORRY ... there's your sorry .... now get some sleep"

NNOOO. ... that's the wrong answer

he gave me another pillow then he tapped my head .... he put a glass of water beside my bed then he took off ... i was thinking ... what the hell happened to i'll-stay-here-till-you-fall-asleep???"

the next thing i remember is waking up in my bed ... a month after i dropped out from my new school and went back to manila ... i enrolled to a new school and guess what my section is ... what a surprise .... i am a junior B ... and so was he .... but we're in different schools now.