Remember when I said sometimes you are wrong. This is one of those times. I didn't ask you to give me 'that space' because I don't want it. I didn't tell you to leave me alone because I don't want you to leave me alone. I don't want to feel like it's summer all over again.
And don't you dare start with my subconscious. I don't want space and I don't want to be left alone PERIOD! I don't know why did you think that's what I want. and that's a question I'd like you to answer. why?
I'm sorry for lying. I was caught off guard. I was (honest to God) just fooling around, then you suddenly asked a serious question. I panicked ... I'm not trying to justify what I did. I was wrong and I'm sorry. I just want you to know what happened.
... and umm, ... I didn't know what a 'pathological liar' is ... so thank you for the info ... all I know is that I lie when I feel I needed to. I thought it's just the same as being a compulsive liar. ... but yeah, pathological sounds better ... I think.
I can't just "not mind" the things you said. ...
I know you were drunk when you said it ... but that doesn't make it any less hurtful.
Kuya, you made me cry.
I thought I'd understand if you'll get mad ... I was wrong again. I didn't.
I don't know, maybe I got the wrong message ... but it felt like you were accusing me of not valuing our friendship that much. ... Why? ... because I can't tell you what my issue is? ... again, maybe I got it wrong ... but it felt that way. I was hurt. ... I kind of still am ...
I was mad until I read your reply ... I didn't understand. Now ... I think I kinda do ... sort of.
you were wrong my friend ...
What I needed was time ... I guess I should've just asked for it.
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I hope your mother gets better soon.
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looks like we'll be having that space after all ... see you after cinemalaya ...
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